IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.8 - "Broken Open"

"IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).



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Chapter Eight – “Broken Open”

We were standing there, nearby his door in silence. Not a single word was said. I couldn’t speak, I was speechless. Danny, well, guess he didn’t wanted to.

The silence became impossible for me, it wasn’t like those moments of silence when words weren’t needed/wanted – it was the silence before the storm, that kind of silence that might kill.

-“It’s over, Eric” Danny said again, I remined silent. I had a feeling he was forcing himself to stay here, to talk to me.

Danny sighed, looked at me, and then turned around – he was about to leave, and I needed to stop him

-“Danny! Wait” I said, and my voice broke, tears were streaming down my face, and I couldn’t stop them. –“Danny! Please, wait...” I said again.

Danny froze, sighed, and slowly turned around toward my direction.

-“Danny...Danny...” I murmured.

-“What Eric?”

-“Tell me, pleae, tell me, why are you doing this to me?” I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know the answer, but I had to ask.

-“Because I’m so sick of this!” He said, in an angry tone, he was about to continue, but I interrupted him.

-“Danny, if it’s because of the stress our relationship is causing you, if the lies you are forced to tell because of it are too much... we can work it out, boy. We can talk things over... Don’t do this, please, I love you.” I said in a quiet, begging voice. I sounded so pathetic.

But what could I do? I just can’t let him go I thought.

-“But I don’t... love you” Danny said in response.

-“You what?” I said, in a shaking voice.

-“Eric Saade, I don’t love you.”

Now I understood. All this time – I was nothing but a playboy to Danny. He never loved me, and all this time – I, Eric Saade, annoying him with my problems.

He just wants to get rid of me, I mean nothing to him.

Danny loved Janna.

-“Ah, ok then...” I said in a dead voice, that was my only reaction.

Danny looked at me with attention now, and then, he said:

-“Eric, I’m sorry boy, I really don’t want to hurt you... I’m sorry” He said in a softer voice now.

-“I know Danny, that’s alright....” I said.

-“Goodbye Eric, take care”
-“We... we can’t stay friends?”

-“No Eric, we can’t – goodbye”

-“Wait! But why?” I demanded, tough I already knew the answer.

-“You know why, Eric” Danny said, and he was, as always – so damn right.

It will be impossible for us to be friends after this, I have lost him – forever.

-“Goodbye Eric” Danny said after another pause, and walked away.

He was gone, carried away by the wind.

It was over.

I walked away, to the steet. It was raining. At least I wasn’t alone, the sky was crying along with me.

I started to aimlessly hang around the city, trying to get lost between the people. All I wanted is to escape from the pain I felt, but it was useless.

With every second the pain had gotten only worse. I could feel it, I could feel every piece of my broken heart aching, and nothing could fix it.

The only person in this world that could have done it, was gone – carried away by the wind.

What shall I do now? Where can I go?  Those questions were floating in my mind, but the harder I tried to answer them – I failed.

Move on?  But I couldn’t even think about it.

Go home?  And what I will tell Molly? How I’m going to explain her why I’m I crying?

“The studio” I said to myself, and felt a sudden relief. I can go to my studio.
I can be totally alone there, nobody will bother me – I will be free to cry all my tears, and fall apart – heartbroken.

I took my car, and drove straight to my studio.

When I arrived, I didn’t even bother to turn neither the lights on, nor the heating system – I sat on the ground, it was cold and dark.

It was a stormy day, the clouds totally covered the sky – there was no sun, no moon, no stars... no lights.

Total eclipse of the sun, total eclipse of my heart, total eclipse of my life.

I lost my love, I lost my way.

The rain kept falling down,  hitting the windows.

It’s going to rain anyway. Nothing matters anymore, and he is not here, and we will never be here, by my side... I whispered.

When I got back to the car, it was 4 in the morning. How ironic! I thought.

I have left my mobile phone in a car, and as a result, I had now 40 unanswered calls, and 24 unreplied SMS.... from Molly.

-“Molly” I said, and sighed. Again, I totally forgot about her existance I realised and fel a twitch of guilt as I drove home.

Molly became so relieved when I entered the room.

-“Eric! Oh Eric! Finally...” She said, as she ran into my arms.

It’s cruel, selfish and unfair to let her suffer because of me. Costs that it costs, I’m going to act things over I thought.

-“Where have you been?” Molly asked me.

Luckily, I was smart enough to prepare the answers in advance when I was in the car.

-“In my studio, crazy writing music” I said, with a fake smile.

Tough everything besides the last two words was actually true.

From Molly’s expression, I could tell she believed me.
She trusted me, trust I did not deserve.

-“Ah, cool!” she said, and added: “Sorry for.... interrupting you” She apologized.
Great! Now she is apologizing to me, now she feels guilty, Oh no I thought.

-“Molly, you did not interrupt me” I said, the last thing I wanted is her to feel bad because of me. I loved her too, after all. Of course it was not as much as I loved...him, but still. The thought of Danny made me feel a twitch of pain... I could feel every broken piece of my heart aching, burning again. I was about to break, but I couldn’t , no – I mustn’t. Molly doesn’t deserve to see that, besides, how the hell am I going to explain her it?
I forced myself to continue –“I have just forgotten the phone in my car, and I realised it only when I got back”.

-“Ah, ok, she said.” She said, -“Something happened? You look a bit... sad?”

The question had caught me a bit off guard, so it took some time to answer it.

-“No, I’m just... tired.”

-“Tired? Eric you look like somebody died!”

Damn, was it that obvious? Guess it was, really, Eric, who do you think you’re fooling now, I guess we... The thought of Danny almost knocked me to the groud this time.

-“Eric!” Molly said in a worried tone, -“Eric, you O.K?” she added.

-“Yes Molly, I am... O.K.”

-“No, you’re not, Eric, maybe you need a doctor....?”

-“No, Molly, I don’t...”

-“What the hell is wrong with you?”

-“I really don’t know.”

-“No, no, Eric, I will call a doctor now.”

-“No! Wait! Molly, please... no doctors....” I said, adding: -“Give me some time, it will pass – I know”

Well, being honest – it will not past, but I’m going to pretend it did. As I said, Molly doesn’t deserve to suffer and worry because of me.

-“Ok, Eric” She said.

I looked at her, and thought I love her, truly I do. It’s not enough, not yet..., and it maybe will never be – But I must try, I must do everything to make it happen.

Danny is gone forever, he will never comeback – he will never love me.

Molly is her, she loves me – I love her. I going do everything to make it enough, I going to  try everything in order to... forget him.

Then, I went toward her and kissed her, she kissed me back.

-“I love you.”

-“I love you too, Eric.” Molly said.

I kissed her again.

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.7 - "Someone New"

 "IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).




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Chapter Seven – “Someone New”

That’s the way things were. I was crazy rehearsing my performance for the Eurovision, making a lot of interview, TV appearances, etc.
Besides, I was crazy working in the studio, recording my sophmore album.

At home, I continued to play the game of pretence with Molly, pretending that I love her more than ever, pretending she is everything to me.

In fact, I do love her in a way – and she is important to me, but my heart belong to someone else, it belongs to Danny.

Fooling Molly was very easy, firstly because she was friends with Danny. She was also very busy, concerned more about her life, her friends, her blog, her... whatever it was. I felt guilty for it, tough.

Danny was also busy recording his new album, rehearsing for  both his solo tour and his band’s, E.M.D, tour.

At home, he was doing the same thing as I did – lying to his girlfriend Janna about his feelings. The only difference was that Janna was important to him a lot more than Molly was important to me. He was afraid, no, he was scared to death about the thought of hurting her. They have been together for eight years, and I must say that they had a big, big, love going on untill I arrived.
Being honest, Janna was really everything for him, literally.

In addition to that, fooling Janna was harder – since her world was centred around Danny.
She did notice that there’s something going on with Danny, but she doesn’t understand what – since he has no girls, and Janna will never believe that Danny cheats on her with me, Eric Saade,  behind her back.

Whenever we had time, we used to sell lies to our girlfriends, and run off to one of Stockholms hotel room’s to be together.
Those were the only happy and calm night in the past few months for us. The rest were full of pressure and stress.
It had only gotten worse due to the fact that we couldn’t fully be ourselves, since our relationship is supposed to be a secret. We always had to put on a show everywhere we go, but those nights we shared together at the hotel room.

I really own my sanity to those few meeting and to Danny especially, he was always there for me when I needed him.

Stress, stress was all I felt 99% of the time, I found myself often asking Should I continue? Should I go on? And telling myself I can’t take it anymore!!!   I really got sick of the lies and the game or ptetence. The only person in the world I could talk about my feeling, my fears was Danny. He always calmed down my fears, he was the only person who understood me.

-“Eric, everything will be alright... don’t worry, I will always be there for you. I love you, more than you ever know”

He used to say and kiss me, everytime I ranted.

Danny is everything to me – the love I felt for had no limits, everything was worth it... including the pain it caused sometimes.

Was, I said to myself in a worried tone, exactly was I repeated in my mind
It’s been two weeks since I last saw him, over this two weeks – he never texted me, he never answered the phone, I haven’t even got a single e-mail from him.
It was weird. Because even if we were far away from each other, he always talked via mobile phone, we always texted each other, we always exchanged
e-mails, and now... total silence.

I couldn’t take it anymore.

I had a feeling it was useless, but I have decided to give it a try, in the 1 000^th time – I tried to call Danny. He didn’t answered.
In the 1 000^th time – I tried to text him. Still, no reply.

I had already spammed Danny ‘s e-mail inbox with tons of messages, all of them reminded without a reply. I begun to worry, what happened to Danny? I found myself frequently asking it.

Is he alright? I asked, Maybe he is sick... I thought, but doesn’t make sense, he would have told me. Nothing made sense – and I was worried, scared, and stressed.

One day, when I couldn’t take that silence anymore – it was slowly killing me, I drove my car straight to Danny’s house.

When I got to his door, he was standing there, waiting for me.

-“Oh Eric, I had a feeling you will come... took you long, I must say” He said, in a very sharped, in a very cold tone. Danny never spoke to me like that.
This statement made me freeze, I was unable to move, I was unable to speek.

-“Eric, don’t stare at me like an idiot, what do you want from me?” He said, again in a very sharp voice, he sounded so harsh. He clearly wasn’t happy about me being hear, I wondered why.

-“Oh, Janna is here?” I realised.

-“No” He answered.

No? What the fuck is going on here? I asked myself.

-“Then why...?” I was beginning to say, but Danny interrupted me.

-“It’s over, Eric” Danny said.
It took me few seconds to understand what he ment.

I starred at him, shocked. I couldn’t bear what he said.

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.6 - "For You... I Break Myself In Two"

"IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).
 

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Chapter Six – “For you... I Break Myself In Two”

-“It’s time for me to go” I realised suddenly, and sighed.

-“Oh rght...” Danny said in agreement.

-“I bet Molly and Janna think we are both lying half dead on the floor with a hell of a hangover” I said, and Danny laughed.

-“Boy, when will I see you again?” Danny questioned me.

-“I really don’t know” I admited, adding –“Hopefully soon... I need you.”

-“I need you too, Eric” Danny confessed, and continued –“But of course – you’ll be very busy now... Eurovision, new album, upcoming summer tour and... Molly.”

-“Molly... I hate that part when I am forced to lie to her, cheat on her and pretend that... you know.”

-“Yes, I know, Eric. I hate that too, when I am forced to lie to Janna. But what can we do?”

-“Escape!!!” I suggested

-“Where? To vegas?” Danny asked, grinning.

-“Yes, why not?”

-“Eric, are you proposing to me?”

-“Sure, Danny – but I don’t have a ring, Molly took them all.”

We both laughed, and Danny gave me a warm hug.

-“I’m so sorry, Eric” He said, -“I see how much pain this relationship, well, not exactly – I mean... the lies, and the pretence caused by our relationship, you are feeling. I see it in your eyes.

I know how much you worry about Molly, about me, about Janna...

I feel all the stress, all the pressure it is causing to you.

I’m so sorry about it, Really. I wish I could do something, but I just don’t know what I c...”

I interrupted him, I had to do it – I did not want him to feel bad and guilty for something that wasn’t his own fault, it was our decision.

Besides, it was also bothering him – maybe even more than it bothered me, I could tell from his expression. Janna, I have to admit, is more important to him – then Molly for me. Furthermore, lies and pretence is something that Danny cannot stand – I know it.
But he will never say it – because he doesn’t want to hurt my feelings.

-“Stop it,  Danny... it’s not your fault” I said.

-“Alright, Eric... We will stop this useless discussion, since it eventually will not lead to a solution. Let’s just leave all our problems behind and focus on our feelings.

We have each other, after all?

I promise you, Eric, that I will always be there for you – that you can tell me anything, and that I will never hurt you, boy.

We will be fighting for our love, no?

It is worth all the pain, I think.

Ehhh... and maybe, one day, we will be finally free to live our lives – and will need no longer to pretend, maybe...” He said, and sighed.

-“Yes, Danny... maybe” I said in response.

I had to admit that I really doubted it, but why not let the hope be? Why let it die? I said to myself.

Danny made me feel hope, he made me believe.

We smiled at each other for a long priceless moment, then, Danny kissed me – I kissed him back.

-“Now, get dressed” Danny ordered me, and added –“I’m not an angel. I don’t know for how long I will be able to resist temptation...” and winked.

Same story again – Eric, I mean, me – turned totally red and almost fainted.

-“Yes, sir” I answered finally, stood up, grabed my clothes and got dressed.

We agreed we will be regulary calling, texting, and e-mailing each other. Whenever we both will have a free time – we will be meeting each other at one of Stockholm’s hotels.

Lies and game of pretence, obviously, were necessary here. Avoiding stress and pain – seemed to be impossible. But our love was worth it, and we will be fighting for it.

When I got back home, Molly was sitting on the sofa, sorrounnded by dozen shopping bags, that were probably filled with clothes, jewelery, chocolate – and of course: Teddy Bears! Oh, lord, how we will survive without Teddy bears? I thought to myself and grinned.

As soon as she had seen me, she stood up, went toward me – and gave me a kiss, I , of course, kissed her back.

Danny does it better I admited to myself.

-“Got over the hangover?” She asked me, and giggled.

-“Yes, ma’am!” I replied, and cracked a smile. –“How was your shopping trip?” I asked, tough from the number of the shopping bags – I could tell it was very succsessful.

-“Great” She responded, and immediately started showing me what she had bought.

I tried to look interested and excited, feeling guilty for the masquerade, and the fact that  I cheated on her with... her friend, Danny.

Danny, who was probably acting things over with Janna now.

Yes, I said to myself and sighed quietly, that’s the beginning of our new life.

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.5 - "Beautiful Morning"

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Chapter Five – “Beautiful Morning”

It was the best night in my life. When I woke up – I was so happy, I bet I was the happiest person in this planet. Everything suddenly seemed to be so simple, so easy, and so beautiful to me. Mainly, it was bacause of the gorgerous blond man with the blue eyes who was lying by my side.

Yeah, that’ what I call “A beautiful morning” – Best I have ever had, it’s official I thought and smiled.

Danny was already awake, lying on his back, still naked, and smiling.
I could not help myself – but gaze toward his glorious body with admiring eyes, and blush.

He, of course, caught my look and winked at me, which, for some reason reminded me of last night – or to be more correct, of what happened last night.

It reminded me the way we both moved against each other. The way it felt, when Danny went deep inside me... The way his lips touched mine – with the softest pressure, and the way those red lips of his tastes...

It all was so amazing, so dreamy – I can’t even find the right words to describe it.

Thanks God we were smart enough to leave the lights on last night I thought to myself and sighed.

Danny laughed quietly, and asked:

-“So, how was last night?” The way he asked that question, made me feel that we are discussion a restaurant or a movie, and not our first gay sex.

Oh God, how does he do that? Oh well, that’s so Danny I added in my mind.

Naturally, I turned all red, as always, bit my lip, and answered:

-“Great, Danny! You rock!!!”

This time Danny laughed out loud, very loud – which made the bed shatter a bit.

-“Thanks Boy” He said, and winked again.

Damn, but how does he do that?! How can he be so.... hot in a very irresistble way?! I swear he has a mission called “How to make Eric fain” Oh, and he is very close to acompalishing it... I asked myself, and after a short pause – I answered myself. He is just too good in everything he ever does, me included, hahaha

I blushed, and thought, I’m leading mental conversations with myself, haha “And suddently, a schizofrenia....”   then I laughed.

-“By the way...” Danny started saying, interrupting my thoughts, -“You’re amazing aswell... I love you, boy.”

Boy... hell yeah, I will be forever boy, no – I will be a manboy, forever Danny’s manboy... Not that I mind...  I thought.

-“I love you too, Danny” I admited.

In response, Danny went toward me – and kissed me.

There was so much love, so much passion in that single kiss. So perfect.

-“I like the way you say my name” – Danny told me after we stopped kissing each other.

-“I like the way you call me ‘boy’ “ – I replied.

We both laughed.

Suddenly, Danny’s expression changed. He gave me that wild look from yesterday, it was full of desire, and his eyes were filled with fire.

Luckily, I was lying on his bed, because if I stood up on the floor or sat on a chair – I would probably end up fainting and breaking my head... or the chair.

Danny looked so sexy,  he was definitely on fire, and to be honest – it turned me on.

-“Eric” He wispered softly, “Eric, are you into morning sex? He asked me.

Was he really asked it? I had a feeling it was rhetorical question, however, like a total geek, I actually answered him.

-“Yes, as long as it is with you” I said.

Before I was even able to blink, like an hurricane – Danny was already on me, and his lips were kissing mine. It all was amazingly good, obviously.

I could feel him moving deep within me – like a tornado. It was, without a single doubt, the best feeling in my life, it was even more powerful than last night.

Practice makes perfect the one who said it, was so damn right.

Nothing is perfect the one who said that, was so damn wrong.

It did not hurt at all – pure pleasure, pure passion.

-“Danny... Danny... I love you” I whispered.

He kissed my neck, and softly whispered in my ear:

-“Eric, I love you too”.

His warm and beautiful body – on me, moving deeply – within me.

His soft red lips, passionately kissing my neck, my face...

I could feel the warmth from his skin on my body...

I could sense hiw warm breathe on my skin...

I could feel him – doing me.

Nothing in this world would ever top this moment.

This moment was priceless, nothing else mattered to us then.

Not our girlfriends, neither our managment, nor the time, that was moving way to fast.

I wished we could be timeless – I wished this moment would last forever.

I bet that even if the world would come to an end, we would not notice it.

I feel the love from your heart is hitting me,

I wanna stay to be yours for eternity,

Don’t let the feelings go away so rapidly,

The clocks would never surround us...

We could be timeles...

Again, unfortunately – everything comes to an end.

But an end is always the beginning of something new, right?

-“I love you, Eric” Danny said and kissed my forehead as he stopped.

-“I love you too, Danny” I replied.

We both lied on our backs, by each other’s sides, happy and naked.

As always – words weren’t needed.

It’s like that with Danny.

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.4 - "All On You"

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Chapter Four – “All On You”

We were sitting quietly on Danny’s sofa, starring deeply in each other’s eyes.
Suddenly, Danny changed his position from sitting – to half lying, cracked a smile into my direction and bite his lip.

I was literally speechless, I really didn’t know what to say, Man, how can he be so hot? I asked myself and dirty thoughts started to run in my mind.

-“Eric” Danny adressed me, -“Tell me something boy, something about you, that I don’t know yet...” He requested, and laughed - still biting his lip. Damn, what private joke I keep missing?  I thought and responded to him.

-“Hmmmm.... I....” I was beginning to say – and stopped, because my mind was thinking about something else. Then I looked straight into Danny’s eyes, and I got lost in them, once again. 
–“I.... well, hmm...” I tried once again to say something, but couldn’t.

I’ll tell him something he doesn’t know! Right now, I want him so much! I want to touch, to feel his body... that’s what he doesn’t know yet! Ithought, and started to imagine us – me and Danny, making love. Now it was my turn to bite my lip and laugh, and I’ve done so.

-“Eric, what are you thinking about?” Danny questioned me, due to that I was probably looking like a total fool, who has lost the power of speech.

-“Ah, me?” I said, dizzy, still looking like a total fool.

-“Yes, you” Danny confirmed, and laughed, -“Do you see any other Eric here?”.

-“Nope... haha” I said, smiling.

-“So, what are you thinking about? That makes you blush so much?”

Wait. I was blushing? Oh God, couldn’t it get even more embaracing? I thought, but well, I had to answer.... “No secrets from you, boy” I told Danny earlier.

-“Danny, I....”

-“Eric, don’t be afraid to tell me... but if you don’t want to, that’s alright, boy. I can wait, since I’m guessing you will tell me it one day, eventually, right?”

-“Yeah, Danny... but I want this to happen so much, right here, right now.”

-“What the word ‘this’ stands for?” Danny asked, raised an eyebrow, and gazed at me  - with a corious look.
I didn’t answer. I didn’t knew how to tell him this. Danny, the words this stands for the word sex, you know. Oh, and I spent the past half hour thinking about you and me making love, you know. There’s no way in hell I will say it.

-“Oh!” Danny said suddenly, and then repeated “Oh!”

I starred at him with questioning eyes, in reply – he smiled at me, biting his lip.

Few minutes passed, I was still speechless, starring at him with questioning eyes. Then, suddenly Danny started to laugh.

-“Danny?” I finally said, -“What’s so funny?”

-“Nothing, boy” He answered, laughing. –“I have just realised what the word ‘this’ stands for, that’s it.” He added.

-“What the word ‘this’ stands for?” I said. Technically, it was supposed to be a question – but the intonation sounded like a like an echo of what he said before.

He didn’t aswered me.
Suddenly, he was only few inches away from me. I could feel his warm breath on my face, I could feel the heat from his body on my skin, I could hear his heartbeat. In response, my heartbeat went totally wild, I started to breath so loudly – I lost control over myself, over my body.

Danny slowly took his shirt off, revealing his perfect chest. My heartbeat went even more insane.
Danny started kissing me, wait, no – he crashed my lips. Few second later he was leaning on my chest, shirtless, still kissing my lips. God, he was so... so fine, so warm, his muscles were perfect.

I couldn’t normally breathe, my breathing sounded more like moaning now.

Danny started kissing my neck, while his hands were giving my back some nice massage.

Danny stopped, pulled my shirt off, and strarted to touch my chest,  my waist, my nipples, while looking into my eyes. I could feel the adrenaline rush running throught my skin, I could feel the hidden desire in me, that was burning – I wanted him more than I wanted anything else, I needed him more than I needed air – right here, right now. Nothing matters.

Now it was my turn, I knocked him to the sofa, leaned against his body – and started kissing his lips, his shoulders, his arms, his face, his body.... ahhh, it was so perfect.

I stopped for a second, to take my and his pants off, Danny saw my intention and decided to do it for me – I didn’t protest, obviously.

Now we were both in out underwear, shirtless, lying on each other and making out.

It was the best feeling of my life, it was so hot, nothing could be compared to it, Molly wasn’t even close.

I would have loved to stay like this forever, but my body, and Danny’s too, had other desires.

Danny  pulled us to the floor, he was ‘on top’, not that I minded it.
He took my underpants off, I was completly naked – and for the first time in my life it didn’t bother me, ususally, unlike Danny, I’m a shy boy.

Danny kissed my forehead, and slowly with his lips – went down on my lips, my neck, my chest, my waist and on me, he went down... on me.

-“Ahhh” I said, sounding like an echo – because I lost count on the times I repeated this.
–“Just like that, boy, you’re doing it so fucking well!” I said.

-“Ohhh, Don’t stop”  I added, moaning.

My breathing was so loud, I was about to expload, it sounded more like screaming. But I wasn’t screaming out of pain, I was screaming out of pleasure. I have never felt this way before.

God, his girlfriend is the luckiest person on earth – as much as I am jealous of her, and I must also say that I totally don’t like her.

He stopped, and looked into my eyes with a big smile.

-“Eric, you taste amazingly good” He told me, grinning, I would have said that I blushed – but I was already all red.

-“Danny, I love you” I had nothing to say but those three simple words.

-“I love you too, boy” He told me, and kissed my lips.

-“It was the best evening in my life, Danny, thanks....” I admited.

-“Mine too, Eric, you’re welcome, tough it’s not over, not yet haha” He responded, adding: -“What do you think about going into more.... comfortable place? Like my bed?”

-“Great idea!” I told him.

We stood up, and headed to Danny’s bed. On the way, Danny took off his underpants aswell. Now we were both naked.

His body was so amazingly perfect, I swear that I haven’t seen anything better.

Now I really hated his girlfriend, the expression “don’t like” didn’t fit anymore.

He was lying on the bed, naked, smiling at me. That was an open invitation.

I decided to don’t waste time looking like an idiot that doesn’t know what to do, after all, it wasn’t my first sex.

Tough it was way better, and way more different.

Hahaha, if was my first gay sex! I thought, and started laughing.

-“You’re beautiful” I told him.

-“So are you, Eric” He said, and laughed a bit. Here we again, I thought, another private joke I missed! I decided to stop being a total geek, so I closed my eyes, and went down on him.

It was good, in a very strange way – and Danny enjoyed it.

He said my name, murmured “I Love You”, “Don’t Stop” and “Ohh”.

Then he stopped me, pulled me to the bed, got on top, and started to do... me.

It was the best feeling ever in my life – I could not find the words to descrive it, they just don’t exist, it was the best evening in my life, I didn’t want it to end.

But it had to, as always, everything has a beginning – and everything comes to an end.

When we were done, we were lying by each other’s sides, happily smiling – not speaking. Again, words were needless.

 

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.3 - "Just a Dream"

"IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).





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Chapter Three - "Just a Dream"





I was driving my car straight to Danny’s appartment, trying hard to concentrate on the road.



Concentrate, Eric, concentrate! I ordered myself, but I failed – everytime I actually tried.

Instead of concentrating on the road, what normal, sane people do – I was concentrating on Danny’s pretty face.



Great, now I will probably crash a three in the most absurd possible way known to humanity, everybody will laugh... Oh, and if I will survive, what probably won’t happen – I will arrested and sent to jail, haha, k-k-killed by a cop - I said quietly, to myself and started laughing.

It has been a while since I was in such a good mood, and in all my 21 years of life, I have never felt this way – I was never in love with someone like that... except of Danny.

Why doesn he has to be the exception of everything?I asked myself, and laughed again, feeling like a total fool. Great, now I am speaking to myself!





Due to that me and Danny agreed to keep our real feelings and relationship status as a secret, we lied to Molly and Janna (our girlfriends) about today.

They honestly believe we’ll be having a boy-evening, with lots of alcohol and idiotic stuff...



Molly went to shopping with her friends, and Janna went to visit her brother.

Which means that me and Danny will be alone tonight. That thought made me smile, tough...

Not that I know what will happen tonight, but getting drunk and acting like an idiot were never on our list. I guarantee that.



When I finally arrived near Danny’s house, I stopped the car at the parking station, got out, and went to Danny’s house.

Exactly when I was about to knock on the door, I realised it is already openned, so I just got in.



He was there, sitting on his white sofa, wearing a black top-tank and a pair or jeans, waiting for me. He smiled at me, as I entered the room.

Before I could say something, he asked me:

-“So, how was your night, boy?” He asked me, grinning – what made me wonder what private joke did I miss.

-“Hey Danny” I greated him, with enthusiastic tone as I sat nearby him and smiled, -“My night was fine, a bit sleepless, but at least I had nice dreams”.

He laughed even more louder this time, he looked so good, so cute while laughing – I was helpless, I had no choice, so I laughed with him.

-“So Danny, what the hell were you doing awake at... 4 in the morning? If that’s not a secret, of course” I asked him, when we stopped laughing.



-“Of course no! No secrets from you, boy” Danny replied, and winked. I must admit that it made me lose my breath and faint on his sofa... no... his chest.

Watching my geek reaction, seemed to be very entertaining to Danny, so he giggled and said: -“Back to your question....” My question, sigh. Wait, what have I asked him? I’m really losing my mind. It’s official. Danny continued:

-“I was thinking about last night, about you... And daydreaming, about us while starring at the moon and the stars... How romantic! Haha” he admited, and smiled happily at me.

-“Ah, well, I did see you in my dreams, too. Only I was sleeping, you know – mixing the pleasant part, dreaming with the necessary part, sleeping.”

-“Smart!” Danny said, and questioned me: “What did you dream? If that’s not a secret, of course” and looked at me.

-“No secrets from you, boy” I said, trying to copy his tone – but failing. Then I told him about my dream:

-“Danny, I was dreaming of me and you, together someday... In a world when nobody knows us, no press, no menagment, no girlfriends... It was just me, you and the nature. We were alone, we were happy, we were in love..., you know” The last part made me blush, so much that I was even more red than a tomato.

-“Embarassing?” I asked him, red faced.

-“No, absolutely no” He said, and added: “I liked the last part the most...” I turned even more red.



Then, without a single warning – His lips touched mine, and he kissed me.

This kiss was a lot different that our previous one, last night. It was wild, it was a lot more passionate, we were both on fire – burning.

Again, I caught myself wishing it will never end – but of course, it had too. Everything has a beginning, and everything comes to an end, unfortunately.



The kiss was followed by a silence, that kind of silence when no words are needed – pure harmony.

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.2 - "4 In The Morning"

"IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).



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Chapter Two: “4 In The Morning”



The next morning, when I woke up, after having another “Danny Night” I must say – I noticed that I have just recieved an SMS, and I didn’t even had to look at the sender’s name to know the sender’s identity, it was, of course – Danny.

I clicked “view” and began to read:



“Eric! Look, I have a day off today, and I’ve got a feeling so are you... so, well, I wanted to ask – Would you like to come over me this evening? To my place, I mean.... We can have a whole lotta fun! Love, D. “



Is that even a question? I thought, as I started typing the following: “Of course, I’ll be there at 6 pm, Ok? Love, E. “ there’s a big, big love in the air... fuck yeah.

I thought, and as soon as I was done – I pressed “send”.



The reply came a minute later, “Ok boy! See you soon! Love, D.” it was written then. My only reaction to this was... a huge smile.



Ain’t it funny how one single SMS with a plain text, written in plain Swedish, have just made my day?

Then, without a reason – I started laughing. Guess my laughter was loud, too loud and it awoken Molly.



Oh Molly! I thought, and felt guilt. I have totally forgotten about her existance, while she is lying next to me! Untill I met Danny, she was everything to me, and now I d... but Molly interrupted my thoughts, questioning:

-“Eric, What the hell is wrong with you?! It’s 4 in the morning! Why aren’t you sleeping?”

Damn, I thought, Was it 4 in the morning? What the hell was Danny doing awake at such time? I wondered.

-“Eric....?” Molly re-asked me, due to my ignorrance.

-“What Molly?” – I asked her, since her question ran out of my mind, and I must say that I felt like a total Idiot, thanks to Danny! Haha.

-“May you please explain to me, if that’s not a secret,of course... The reason you are awake, whom were you texting, and what was so funny? Thanks!” she said, clearly annoyed.

-“Woah, that’s a huge question, XL – Extra Large!” I replied, and started laughing.

-“Just answer!” she said, in an angry tone.

Annoying Molly at 4 in the morning was pointless, so I have decided to finally answer her.



-“Alright!Alright! I’m awake because... well, I don’t really know why, I just woke up! That’s it. I was chatting via SMS with a guy named Danny Saucedo, you know... He invited me for a ‘boy evening’ – and I accepted the invitation. Danny is funny – that’s why I laughed.”

I answered, and added after a short pause: -“Guess it was too loud, sorry for interrupting you sleeping” I apologized.

My explantation made Molly to calm down, she smiled and started to laugh.

-“Have fun! Haha, thought it’s a long way to go untill the evening. And now, lease, let me sleep, love.” She said, in a warm tone.

Of course we will be having fun, if she only knew, hahaha I thought, and said:

-“Good night Molly! Sleep well, princess.”

She giggles and closed her eyes.



I decided to follow her example, and try to sleep a bit, so I closed my eyes.

There, in my dream, Danny was waiting for me of course – He was smiling his beautiful smile, and looking at me with his beautiful blue eyes.

If only you, Danny... could see that I’m burning – on for you I said to him, in my dream, and fell asleep.