Saturday, August 6, 2011

IF ONLY YOU: Chapter No.9 - "Screamin' On Top Of The World"


"IF ONLY YOU" Danny Saucedo and Eric Saade fanficion, written by Nika (me).



Please, do not repost it in any place without asking premission and crediting me & my page, thank you! This was written for your pure enjoyment, all events described here are purely fictional (unfortunately). 



Chapter Nine – “Screamin’ On Top Of The World”


Days passed, weeks passed, months passed – the pain was still the same. Nothing had really changed.
Crazy rehearsing my number for the Eurovision. Spending hours in the studio with my friend, Jason – writing and recording music. Going home, and lying to Molly than I look the way I look; dead on my feet, lifeless and heartbroken because I am exhausted because of work.
She believed it, at least I thought she did.

I came back home, after I had finished the rehersals and the studio session.
When I entered home, I openned the door, and I heard that Molly was talking to someone from the Sallon, since there was no second voice – I guessed it was on the phone.
-“Danny, tell me, what the hell is wrong with him? I can’t stand it anymore!” Molly said.
What? What is wrong with who? What she can’t stand? Danny? What Danny? Was Molly talking to Danny? Why? A lot of unanswered questions were floating in my mind. “What the fuck is going on here?” I whispered to myself.

-“Don’t tell me you don’t know, I have a feeling you do. There is a reason while Eric’s face is full of pain whenever he hears your name! Don’t lie to me!” Molly replied to... Danny.
Then I understood everything. Really, Eric, who do you think you were fooling? Probably only yourself I thought.

-“What happened between you? Why aren’t you talking to each other anymore?” Molly demanded him on the phone, and added: -“I remember how you used to spend so much time together, and now... What happened? Did you guys fight?”
Molly wasn’t living in outer space as I thought, she noticed every little thing. She knew I was lying to her about my “lifeless” mood, and she guessed why – Danny, and she was damn right all the way long.
Lord, why am I the only person in this planet to be wrong?

-“Nothing happened? Then talk to Eric!” Molly screamed. This girl was screaming at Danny because of me, I don’t deserve it – she is really too good for me.

-“What do you mean ‘you can’t’, the hell you can! Danny! Please! I’m asking you as a friend.... as a cousin.... Eric is important to me, and I have a sense that what is going on with him, has something to do with you, yes, YOU!”
And I must say that her senses didn’t let her down, again.

-“Danny, please....” Molly said now, almost whispered, in a broken voice.
I felt a strong twitch of guilt, I was trying hard to not make her suffer, but she was suffering all the time. “I am so pathetic” I whispered to myself. Molly continued: -“Danny, I will never tell Eric you spoke to me, I swear you can trust me... I just want to help Eric” She added in a broken voice.

Silence.

-“No, Danny! Wait... Danny no!” Molly said, and  threw the phone away – it landed on the ground, and survived somehow.
Then, she sat on the ground and started crying.

What should I do? I asked myself.

Go on – to Molly?
 Calm her, tell her I will improve – well, lie, because I will not.
This broken heart will not be fixed...
Tell her that I love her?
When I love someone else more.
Someone else who doesn’t care about me...
But if I will... I will have to explain her everything, everything about my relationship with Danny... I can’t, I can’t!

It was enough for me, I didn’t now what to do. The thoughts of Danny made every piece of my heart ache again, but this time it was 1 000th times stronger.
I wanted ro run, to escape. I wanted to be alone, on the edge of the word – on top of the world. All alone, completely by myself – me, myself and... my pain.

Molly... oh well, I’m going to hurt it her again now
The good part of it is that she doesn’t know I am here, not yet I thought, and added in my mind  But she will, If I keep on standing here... If Molly sees me now, she will find out everything – she is smart, it will take her 10 seconds exactly to understand what happened between me and Danny. She is way  more observe than I gave her credit for, furthermore – my heartbroken look says it all. “I have to go” I whispered to myself, and ran away back, from my own house to my own car.
I drove away as fast as I could.
Leaving everything behind.
 
Days passed, weeks passed, months passed – the pain was still the same. Nothing had really changed.
Crazy rehearsing my number for the Eurovision. Spending hours in the studio with my friend, Jason – writing and recording music. Going home, and lying to Molly than I look the way I look; dead on my feet, lifeless and heartbroken because I am exhausted because of work.
She believed it, at least I thought she did.

I came back home, after I had finished the rehersals and the studio session.
When I entered home, I openned the door, and I heard that Molly was talking to someone from the Sallon, since there was no second voice – I guessed it was on the phone.
-“Danny, tell me, what the hell is wrong with him? I can’t stand it anymore!” Molly said.
What? What is wrong with who? What she can’t stand? Danny? What Danny? Was Molly talking to Danny? Why? A lot of unanswered questions were floating in my mind. “What the fuck is going on here?” I whispered to myself.

-“Don’t tell me you don’t know, I have a feeling you do. There is a reason while Eric’s face is full of pain whenever he hears your name! Don’t lie to me!” Molly replied to... Danny.
Then I understood everything. Really, Eric, who do you think you were fooling? Probably only yourself I thought.

-“What happened between you? Why aren’t you talking to each other anymore?” Molly demanded him on the phone, and added: -“I remember how you used to spend so much time together, and now... What happened? Did you guys fight?”
Molly wasn’t living in outer space as I thought, she noticed every little thing. She knew I was lying to her about my “lifeless” mood, and she guessed why – Danny, and she was damn right all the way long.
Lord, why am I the only person in this planet to be wrong?

-“Nothing happened? The talk to Eric!” Molly screamed. This girl was screaming at Danny because of me, I don’t deserve it – she is really too good for me.

-“What do you mean ‘you can’t’, the hell you can! Danny! Please! I’m asking you as a friend.... as a cousin.... Eric is important to me, and I have a sense that what is going on with him, has something to do with you, yes, YOU!”
And I must say that her senses didn’t let her down, again.

-“Danny, please....” Molly said now, almost whispered, in a broken voice.
I felt a strong twitch of guilt, I was trying hard to not make her suffer, but she was suffering all the time. “I am so pathetic” I whispered to myself. Molly continued: -“Danny, I will never tell Eric you spoke to me, I swear you can trust me... I just want to help Eric” She added in a broken voice.

Silence.

-“No, Danny! Wait... Danny no!” Molly said, and  threw the phone away – it landed on the ground, and survived somehow.
Then, she sat on the ground and started crying.

What should I do? I asked myself.

Go on – to Molly?
 Calm her, tell her I will improve – well, lie, because I will not.
This broken heart will not be fixed...
Tell her that I love her?
When I love someone else more.
Someone else who doesn’t care about me...
But if I will... I will have to explain her everything, everything about my relationship with Danny... I can’t, I can’t!

It was enough for me, I didn’t now what to do. The thoughts of Danny made every piece of my heart ache again, but this time it was 1 000th times stronger.
I wanted ro run, to escape. I wanted to be alone, on the edge of the word – on top of the world. All alone, completely by myself – me, myself and... my pain.

Molly... oh well, I’m going to hurt it her again now
The good part of it is that she doesn’t know I am here, not yet I thought, and added in my mind  But she will, If I keep on standing here... If Molly sees me now, she will find out everything – she is smart, it will take her 10 seconds exactly to understand what happened between me and Danny. She is way  more observe than I gave her credit for, furthermore – my heartbroken look says it all. “I have to go” I whispered to myself, and ran away back, from my own house to my own car.
I drove away as fast as I could.
Leaving everything behind.

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